I hate and love my ADHD
A true love story about a man and his brain
I fucking hate my ADHD, but I also love it; this is my love/hate story about my ADHD brain.
My house is usually a big mess, and don’t start about the dishes. The endless pushing forward of my household chores is so self-destructive that I will be overwhelmed to the point that it takes me so much effort to complete them. I need a day off to complete them, so the best choice here is to eat out.
Talking with friends or someone close to me about important stuff takes a lot of work to focus on. When I need to listen, I will wander off thinking about my damn chores, or if I can take a bear in a fight, and when the conversation ends, I have an extensive strategy to take on the bear but no clue about the important stuff we talk about. It looks like I don’t care about them, but I do. Only my ADHD brain has a different plan.
For some reason, I hate when people ask too many questions. My theory is that my brain needs to process the first question and come up with a plan to fight this fantasy bear, and before I know it, there are three more questions, and I start to feel stupid.
BUT
At the same time, I also love it. I will never stop being passionate about everything. You, my friend, have something big coming up. I will make T-shirts to support you. Or when I find a new hobby and start reading about it until I’m a professor in that field. Most of the time, my focus is terrible, but sometimes, when I find my focus, I will get hyperfocus and kick off; yeah, I will forget to eat, but I get shit done!
Or is there a problem that needs thinking outside the box? I got you. My ADHD brain thinks about 178904 things at once, so I will find the perfect solution; this gives me insight that other people see that quickly. I like my quick problem-solving and my ability to be creative with tasks (not my household task; don’t start!).
The last thing I love about my ADHD brain is also the one I love the most — and, at the same time, my downfall. I’m so impulsive; I like to call it spontaneous, which sounds much better, like drinking beers in a city, loving the town, and moving there in 3 weeks or after one kickboxing class, entering a tournament.
I KNOW!
Okay, nice article, Bram; what do you want to tell us?
If you have ADHD, you are a fricking badass ❤
